;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Saturday, December 09, 2006

hello! i just woke up from a long long slumber :D
im super exhuasted! been going t watch NAC competition every single day
very tiring! but its very rewarding cause ive really learnt alot
i realised alot more about what is good music what is bad
and how impt it is t play with your heart, taifeng, blahblahblah
but most importantly,being natural
no use having so much action and zhuang shi yin when there is no substance t your music
the music has t flow if not the melody would sound very abrupt and not ncie at all
there were some pple that cmi or that they had skills jsut not the right feel or theyre intepretation was jsut weird, and there were those that i really pitied cause it seems like they have been cheated of money from their tcher cause what they played was :S
but at the same time i really admire those pple who went up t compete
even though i was able t criticise, i myself was lacking of many things
aye whatever im no talent in my ruan
thats why i was so impressed by those lil kids who could really play!
hahah JIAYOU t all the others who got into finals! :D

as i heard zhang rong hui's students talking
i suddenly realised how old i was
i feel totally dettached from the co circle
i remeber how i used t be like them
talking and discussing and maybe even gossiping a lil
now im not bothered by whos who and blahblah
no more wu liao talks,
im there only t listen and nothing else
even if my mind starts t wander off
the tunes and notes lead me back t where i am
thats why im enjoying my everyday!
i guesslike my lao shi said there comes a day when all u go in t here for a concert is the qualityy
and you become critical of whats playing on stage
i may not be qualified t judge quality
at least im enjoying my music im playing (:
all those petty talks i hear around me are just disgusting t me

maybe its true they say that music needs t have money
or else theres a limit t where a person can go
i used t know friends taht can play but have no money t cont ruan
the world's just so practical
but its just like that
i hoep those rich kids know how lucky they are t be able t get good tchers get good environments t develop their potentials
cause there are pple out there who wish t be in their positions but can nv make it

ok its 5! i need t bathe and get ready for prac! (:
TATA

i made a wish for myself today
& theres one for you
be happy (:

;; right from the beginning